Getting older as time goes by But too old for the past I think about how I've been spending my time And if I think too much, time has passed Someone asks how I've been Because I spend so much time awake What have I been doing in the past years I think about how many plans I've set aside Friends ask why I disappear so often Mom wonders why I smoke so much Woman wonders what I'm thinking They don't think about what I've been through And I've been trying, I swear I'm trying To be less paranoid and more friendly No one's to blame for me being problematic And if someone listens, it's when I'm singing I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine I've had some really bad days My ex is doing just fine without me I've made so many mistakes in the past months It wasn't on purpose, well, sometimes it was Yes, I need to take better care of myself Yes, I want another gin shot Overdose in the end, just neurosis in my mind I remembered my mother Everything I do to support myself since I was young Everything I go through in secret The tear hidden behind the smile I need to face my fears Days go by, nothing changes I say I'm fine, but I need help I swim against the pain but drown in guilt You hear me but no one listens to me I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine, I'm fine I'm fine Okay, but everything is really fine I feel like it's not okay though If it's not, talk to mom, you hear